The Wait is Almost Over
Two summers ago, my husband took me to Chicago to make one of my dreams come true: seeing U2 in concert. On the way, and especially the minutes leading up to the show starting, I began to have little pricks of worry. What if I am disappointed? What if I have looked forward to this for twenty-eight years and it’s not as great as I think it is? Will this drive/ticket price/two nights in a hotel be ‘worth it’? And then, as I was caught up in the religious experience that a U2 concert is, all of my fears were dashed away and drowned out by the singing.
I feel similarly regarding this album that we are working on. This is a dream in my heart that began twenty years ago. Many times during those years, this dream nearly died. I tried to make it happen on four separate occasions and the project was shelved due to lack of finances, time, moving, and unreliable people. Then, after a wilderness period that nearly killed me, I found myself in Bowling Green talking to Brandon one day about writing music, playing music, really about loving music.
Now, as I am recording and planning arrangements, music videos, cover art and launch parties, I am having similar pricks of worry mixed with elation. Will this be as great as I think it can be? Will this be worth all of the time and heart and effort and tears that went into writing these songs over the past twenty years? My great hope is that the answer will be drowned out by all the singing.